Content warning: This video describes events related to bullying and eating disorders that might be disturbing to some viewers.
Former MTV VJ Holly Grabarek can’t pinpoint what sparked it off: a friend’s remark about her muscular arms, teachers commenting on her weight during school health checkups, or the unremitting pressure on women to be unrealistically thin.
Eventually, what started as a diet spiralled into a full-blown eating disorder.
For years, Holly battled anorexia without anyone realising that something was wrong—until she realised that what it took for her to change was a complete overhaul of her beliefs about body image—a process that has given her a newfound appreciation for food and, most importantly, herself.
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